Fasting: Day 2

Well, day 2 was a little weirder than day 1. I went to the park again at lunch time and I was exited. But God was teaching me a new thing. Asking for the impossible, like make the flowing water stop, had become easy for me to do. Now I felt the Lord asking me to walk on water. Not only that, but that bank that He wanted me to crawl down towards the water was steep and muddy. If I went for it, there was no safe way. It was all or nothing. I fought Him on this for a while. I strongly doubted this was from the Lord. I was upset. We had a great day the day before and now He's making me mad.

Rich Mullins once said that God, "bloodies your nose then gives you a ride home on His bicycle." Earlier in the day I read from Haggai 2:6-7 "This is what the LORD Almighty says: 'In a little while I will once more shake the heavens and the earth, the sea and the dry land. I will shake all nations, and the desired of all nations will come, and I will fill this house with glory,' says the LORD Almighty." And from Hebrews 12:26-27 "At that time his voice shook the earth, but now he has promised, "Once more I will shake not only the earth but also the heavens."] The words "once more" indicate the removing of what can be shaken—that is, created things—so that what cannot be shaken may remain."

The Lord has been increasing my faith, but He showed me that my faith still has a long way to go. It is easier for me to move in faith by walking on water if everything is set up for me to fail. Meaning, if the Lord asked me do walk on water, I would like step the water to be easy to get to instead of me climbing down a muddy bank. Also, if I was in shorts and bare feet and the water wasn't very deep. That way, if it doesn't work, I'll be alright. But He set this up for me where it was all or nothing. I even sensed that angels were putting down boards on top of the water for me to walk on.

I climbed down as safe as can be and touched the top of the water with my shoe. But I didn't let my weight shift on that foot. I wasn't going any further than that. I climbed back up the bank and walked away in anger. I wanted the angels to follow and to meet with God like the day before, but I knew they stayed behind. The further I walked, I began to sense fear and an evil spirit. I immediately turned around to head back towards God and the angels. The Lord said to me, "Align yourself with Me and I will protect you. If you leave My covering, you will be exposed."

I think this entire event was stretching me more and more to believe the impossible. The rest of the day, I felt an increase in faith. Even though I didn't follow through with my steps on the water, the Lord still increased my faith. I needed to drive somewhere new and I didn't have directions. I told God that I'm aligned with Him and that He is my cover. He lead me to the destination better than any GPS. I didn't make one wrong turn.

This is all fairly new and pretty weird to me. I've only recently begun to be aware of the spiritual realm around me. I don't physically see it, by it is almost like I imagine it. But I know it's not imagination. I have felt His presence too many times for it to be just me. I invite the Lord to correct me, but all He does is encourage me. God is so good. I praise His Name. Hallelujah.

"Those You love, You will chasten. Everything that can be will be shaken. Everything that can be will be shaken. Only You remain. Only You remain. Only You remain. Only You remain." - Shaken by Paul Baloche